I just felt like saying that….
Yeah, I’m a bit stressed with work… Blogging about it helps a bit. So what’s the drama? Let me count it out for you…

1. The manual I’m writing is due today. Although it’ll still be just the draft, it needs as much information as I could stuff into it. The work was divided but the divided work is still tedious to work on…
2. The letter proposal assigned for me to write needs additional crap…
3. The articles I have to review is getting piled up… Oh the horror, I’m sinking into a lot of paper work!

Fiona has learned to slap someone with her small hands whenever she’s annoyed or ignored. She smiles, giggles, gurgles and coos. She keeps looking for me when I’m not beside her, at least that’s what my mom told me. Ain’t that sweet?

I have pictures of her smiling on my phone, but I’d need a connector or IRDA or Bluetooth to transfer them to the computer… For the mean time this is my puny attempt to catch her smile on digital camera..

Mommy, I’m Two Months Old!

Argh! I am retyping this post! Already finished writing, clicked publish and a db error occured *poof* everything was deleted

Argh! I wish I brought headphones to work! It’s so damn quiet without any speakers

Argh! I miss my baby too much! I wish she’s ok, sleeping soundly, being pampered at home, …. I MISS HER!!!!

Argh! I wish this day would end already! I wish I was home already!

Argh! My phone ran out of battery!

Argh! Where did all my email and files go?

Argh! Too many new faces here in the office

It’s 2 am already and I have been crying for the past two hours.. I’ve had enough of this crap we call life. I no longer know where it is heading and I don’t know if I’m strong enough to go on.

Well I’m not feeling myself today
Just a figure in a big monopoly game
Struggle is the price you pay
You get just enough just to give it away
I’m sinking more than floating away
Just throw me a line so I can ache in my pain
The fabric is about to fray…
~ Strong Enough to Break, Hanson

I know jealousy can be a deadly poison in a relationship, but I have grown a jealousy that might not go away that easily. I’m jealous with the freedom my boyfriend is getting. Since we are living separately now, (long story, don’t want to go there) he’s been going out with friends whenever he gets a chance, with work and his financial issues he rarely sees us. I, on the other hand, obviously has little Fiona to take care of. I’m not regretful of having a baby too early in my life and I’m not asking for financial support from him, but I just wish he’s aware that I feel neglected.