3 a.m. thoughts

Have I lost it completely?
 
Is this what a mid life crisis looks like?
 
Why am I actually chasing this fantasy? Is it sexual exploration or am I going mad?
 
Am I just bored or do I have a thing for ruining things for others while digging my own hole as well?

Fresh Start

Whether you’ve been an RSS reader for a while now, or I have coerced you recently to checking my website, or if you just happen to come across this entry at some point in the future through searching and stalking, hello!

Oh dear… I’ve done this countless of times for when I tried to resuscitate my blog from hibernation. I got bored. I had too much on my plate. I got lazy. I have tried and failed endless times but thank you for your patience. I’m getting rusty. It has been a while now.
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OK…?

My punny family and I were preparing the ingredients for taco salad…

Mom: Is it OK that your brothers got this cheese brand for grating? *shows me the cheese block*
Me: Oh OK… How does it taste?
Brother: Uh… it’s OK

ok cheese

Rumble Tumble Tummy

It started halfway going home.

I felt carsick and I couldn’t figure out why the usual quick fixes won’t work. I was starting to calculate if I should tell the cabby to pull over as soon as possible so I could throw up, or if I can wait until the end of the trip.

I managed to get home without throwing up but I knew it was getting worse. I went straight to the bathroom and poised myself in front of the sink to vomit. But I can’t! So now I could not understand what my body wants to do! My chest was tightening. Felt like I was having heartburn too. Should I panic? What do you want, body? Is it my stomach, my intestines, my heart, my lungs? What is it, Lassie, did little Timmy fall in a well?

Letters #001

To he who abandoned her,

This is not a letter of hatred. I had to let you go for self-preservation, and I understand that you probably walked away to do the same. There was anger and resentment because I didn’t understand how you can turn your back completely from a gift made from love. While I still don’t understand, I’ve already forgiven you.

 

To she who is my sun,

Even if I can be very scary or very busy, I want you to know that my world revolves around you, and everything I do is for you. I am sorry that I am not perfect and that I cannot give you everything you need. I try. Please understand.

The Leap

First, she felt a dream growing inside her. Then, once she’d made her decision, she noticed the fear in her heart. Finally came the leap of faith and, with it, a new opportunity. That is how changes are born. That is how great things come to pass.

 

Awakening

Red Queen

Harley Quinn is awesomesauce here! So yeah, I like the tragic character that is Harley Quinn, but I didn’t consider she’d be associated with the title “Red Queen”. I find it amusing that this fan-made video does. Did you know that I used to go around the digital forums with the handle: RedQueen? Basically because I liked red at the time. And I couldn’t think of another title of royalty, “Lady” was not royal enough, “Your Highness” was too long and “Goddess” was too much. LOL