Uncertain of Love

I feel like a fool uncertain of what I should tell you, and what I should feel
Should I love you because you say you love me? Because you say you’re real?
But words are just words and only comes from the mind and mouth
How can I be certain if distance hinders us from finding out?

I have so many questions, about you, your life and all
Why do I have a feeling that I am starting to fall?
But a tired heart can’t be certain for it has been broken before
Can you love and accept my past, my present and more?

Light at the End of the Tunnel

I have found a really neat anecdote that I shall try to live by…

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open,
with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really are strong, And you really do have worth.

Far Away

The band played this for me tonight. I try to keep inner pain to myself and go on with a smile but sometimes, it takes only one song to release an aching heart…

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

I love you
And I’ve loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

Stalkers?

According to a test I took a few weeks ago (so ok it’s not really a test it’s just a game), I have 57% chances of going to hell and I will become famous – and subsequently killed by a stalker. :|

Honestly, I’ve had a history of stalkers. Twice during my early college and twice just after college. :lol: And here I go with a bit of the details…

Love Just Won’t Do

I’m tired beyond relief. I hate my job (well not all of it, just the parts where I’m assigned to stuff my title doesn’t cover). I miss my baby sooo bad I’m actually rethinking about continuing my day job. The only problem is I worry that I might not make enough by working at home.

I feel

I’m dedicating this song I’m listening to right now to a guy I know and admire. Here’s to bittersweet pain, unchangeable love and shattered moments.

When I came here there was more.
Now I’ve come back to destroy,
And I’ve got nothing left,
And it’s a shame what we’ve become,
When we hurt the ones we love,
And it’s a place I can not go,
Anymore.

When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It’s a hard mistake.
When we collide,
We break.

Expert kisser?

lol! I’m having way too much fun with the results of these blog things. And to think I have 1 blog to template and 6 articles to review tonight.


You’re an Expert Kisser
expert kisser
You’re a kissing pro, but it’s all about quality and not quantity
You’ve perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone’s socks off
And you’re adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Anyone wanna try my smooches? ;) :P joke!

I am Abnormal! Yey!

Cooooooool! Most of my officemates took this exam for fun and most of them got a percentage lower than 52%. And viola! I am the most abnormal of them all! I still think that picture is scary.

You Are 72% Abnormal
You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom’s basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

I am Not a Drunkard *hik*

I look stupid in this photo, no make-up, messy hair, unprepared smile… I don’t even know why I even allowed my friends to portray me as a drunkard. I’m not, I’m not alcohol depended either. I drink yes but I no longer drink as much as I used to back in college… I wouldn’t want to unveil my past now would I? ;)

Anyways, cheers!

hehe

I’m Having a Nightmare!

Never in my whole life did I dream of becoming a teacher. Singing in front of a bar full of drinking people is different from talking in front of a room full of serious people. It’s more intense, more demanding of confidence… it’s creepy.

Today, I had to do just that – twice! I am the temp trainer and I had to conduct a hands on training with the new employees. It felt awkward and thankfully I pulled it off just nicely (I think I did, so shut up :P )