Oh fertility tree, oh fertility tree of uplb, how I miss thee….
Hahaha, I remember jogging around oval once with a few friends, resting a while under the bask of the very shady tree and finding so early in the morning… a used condom in between it’s roots… aaah yes, you read that right. used condoms… under a tree in the big big freedom park.
During the mornings and afternoons, this tree is the haven of joggers, football players and whathaveyous. It’s big enough to have picnics, and there’s enough space to play a game of frisbee, volleyball or football or kite flying.
… Not really a new toy coz my dad used it before I did, but hell, it’s new for me!
I got a Sony Ericsson K750i.
It’s not something new in the market but I love the quality of the photos (and I am addicted to photos), I get to record videos as well (I haven’t tried though, because I’ve only had the phone for a couple of hours) and the thing is it has a radio which I’ve always needed when I’m traveling around.
My baby just got baptized yesterday… I was awake the whole morning and afternoon which is hard for me really but this wasn’t my day, it was Fiona’s. She was such an angel inside the church. I never had a problem carrying her around well except she was heavy and had to rest a few minutes every now and then. But she really was the angel… She didn’t throw a tantrum all throughout the mass. Daddy was there, we were in a hmmmm… unspoken mutual treaty. It’s not the time or day to talk about problems..
They can’t hurt you while mommy’s here.
I’ll be your fortress, I’ll be your shield.
I love you my baby.
I feel like a fool uncertain of what I should tell you, and what I should feel
Should I love you because you say you love me? Because you say you’re real?
But words are just words and only comes from the mind and mouth
How can I be certain if distance hinders us from finding out?
I have so many questions, about you, your life and all
Why do I have a feeling that I am starting to fall?
But a tired heart can’t be certain for it has been broken before
Can you love and accept my past, my present and more?
I have found a really neat anecdote that I shall try to live by…
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open,
with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really are strong, And you really do have worth.
I’m dedicating this song I’m listening to right now to a guy I know and admire. Here’s to bittersweet pain, unchangeable love and shattered moments.
When I came here there was more.
Now I’ve come back to destroy,
And I’ve got nothing left,
And it’s a shame what we’ve become,
When we hurt the ones we love,
And it’s a place I can not go,
When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It’s a hard mistake.
When we collide,
Cooooooool! Most of my officemates took this exam for fun and most of them got a percentage lower than 52%. And viola! I am the most abnormal of them all! I still think that picture is scary.
| You Are 72% Abnormal
| You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom’s basement.
You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.
I look stupid in this photo, no make-up, messy hair, unprepared smile… I don’t even know why I even allowed my friends to portray me as a drunkard. I’m not, I’m not dependent on it either. I drink yes but I no longer drink as much as I used to back in college… I wouldn’t want to unveil my past now would I? 😉