Foolish

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I have been hurt before, hurt all over
and I think my heart will no longer mend
I have found solace in being alone
for there is no one to turn to. I can’t depend.
I’ve given up on love, I’ve given up on “us”
given up on finding joy and completion
They say I’m strong but I’m not
Sometimes I also need love and attention

You found me, and taught me to smile again
You made me feel different, made me new
And in time you opened my heart to love
You became special, I learned to love you
You took care of me, pampered me,
comforted me and made me smile
You told me you love me,
gave me attention, even for a while

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Fertility Tree

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Fertility Tree of UPLB

Oh fertility tree, oh fertility tree of uplb, how I miss thee….

Hahaha, I remember jogging around oval once with a few friends, resting a while under the bask of the very shady tree and finding so early in the morning… a used condom in between it’s roots… aaah yes, you read that right. used condoms… under a tree in the big big freedom park.

During the mornings and afternoons, this tree is the haven of joggers, football players and whathaveyous. It’s big enough to have picnics, and there’s enough space to play a game of frisbee, volleyball or football or kite flying.

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Baptized

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Ashley My baby just got baptized yesterday… I was awake the whole morning and afternoon which is hard for me really but this wasn’t my day, it was Fiona’s. She was such an angel inside the church. I never had a problem carrying her around well except she was heavy and had to rest a few minutes every now and then. But she really was the angel… She didn’t throw a tantrum all throughout the mass. Daddy was there, we were in a hmmmm… unspoken mutual treaty. It’s not the time or day to talk about problems..

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5 Months Darling!

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My baby’s 5 months already! weeeeeee… She’s getting christened this weekend so I’m saving up all my camera’s batteries for that special day. I’ll post the invitation I made when I’m done with it… So what do we do today? Me and my darling daughter’s going to spend the whole morning today, after I’m done typing this… and I’ll also cook up something good to celebrate the occasion. So maybe there’s a missing masculine figure celebrating this with me… Where the hell is he anyway? :lol:

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Uncertain of Love

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I feel like a fool uncertain of what I should tell you, and what I should feel
Should I love you because you say you love me? Because you say you’re real?
But words are just words and only comes from the mind and mouth
How can I be certain if distance hinders us from finding out?

I have so many questions, about you, your life and all
Why do I have a feeling that I am starting to fall?
But a tired heart can’t be certain for it has been broken before
Can you love and accept my past, my present and more?

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Light at the End of the Tunnel

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I have found a really neat anecdote that I shall try to live by…

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open,
with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really are strong, And you really do have worth.

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