Last night, I was with Eric, Jason, and Kenneth at S.Ex. (Sinangag Express) having a late dinner. Note: that Jason and Kenneth are both married, happily of course and Eric is pretty much engaged with his girlfriend of 6 years.

We were all having a decent conversation while waiting for our orders when suddenly a very bad topic surfaced: my love life.

“Bat nga ba single ka pa Joy?” (Why are you still single anyway, Joy?)

In my monotonous voice, “kasi walang nagkakamali” (no one makes the mistake)

Yes, I am.

I’m having a hard time feeling good about myself right now. Maybe because I am really not feeling well. Maybe because of my monthly hysteria. Or maybe because my friend (who I’m asking a big favor from, so I can’t reprimand what he’s doing) has been playing this emo kind of OPM songs from 6 Cycle Mind and Yeng Constantino over and over all afternoon… curses.

I feel so low. I smile yet I could feel the burning pain in my eyes, I could taste the pretense in my jaws. I keep trying to fix my life up and I find myself broken again.

Prepare for at bit of outburst of thoughts.

• Today sucks like a whore giving bad head — Feverish, throat still painful and sour, voice still hoarse (not sexy bedroom husky, nope.. just freakin’ painfully scary)
• Oh great, as if this wasn’t enough, I am now in deep seethed pain.
• I wish my uterus was dettachable and I could just squeeze out all the gunk from in it. Could anyone make that possible?
• Oooooh guess what I saw in my photo archives…
  
• I miss my cousins. I miss my friends. I miss going out. I effin miss drinking too.

I give. Back when I was SEO trainer (kuno) and team leader for that <insert whatever profanity you feel>-type of office somewhere in the inner recesses of Ortigas, I would never talk about work or anything with that theme in this blog (well maybe except rant and bitch about a sudden f_ck up from one of the trainees or a bashing from the clients. To my workmates, does doding daga ring a bell?). Anyhow this isn’t a f_ck up but it is work-related and not at all. It made me LOL. Literally.

I bet you guys have seen it

This video was made by *the* Benj Arriola. What can I say… Ang cute talaga ni kuya kahit nasa banyo lang! Hahaha :sweat: *cough* errrm… No really, it was a fun video. Sad SEO story, nakarelate ako sa sentiments! *sniff*

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXODTDZAyxQ[/youtube]

Geek na kung geek. Nerd na kung nerd. Natawa talaga ako. Nice job kuya, the video’s been added to my Youtube favorites.

Accccccckkkkkkkk Now see, this is one mega ultra super bionic DELAYED post.

But oh well… On with the show.

(Exactly) One month ago, at this same time, I was here at this same place (uhm, in front of my computer where else), in this exact position. The only difference is, today I just got out of bed, a month ago, I just got home from Mall of Asia’s Taste Asia where the second (their second, my first) Bloggers Food Fest took place.