Yesterday marked my 24th year on Earth. I only spent the eve of my birthday drinking with one of my closest college friends, reminiscing about well… college and envisioning the years ahead. Spent my birthday with my family, and childhood friends. No well-planned (no plans at all) party, no grotesquely drunk joiz painted across the floor of some ladies room (no photos to prove it anyway), no flamboyant burning of cash. It was an ok birthday… Maybe it was a bit bitin but beggars can’t choose. I just didn’t want to plan anything at all (and end up disappointed that the plan just didn’t push through, like last year).
I didn’t intend to disappear for half a year. I can’t even believe I lasted this long without writing anything on my blog (save for my vote for Mike during the blog awards). I even took down my blog for the last month or so and replaced it with the LOLcat. I have wanted to breathe back life into my blog several times mostly for the wrong reasons. But now that I’m just a couple of sleeps away from my birthday, I thought it would be appropriate to reenter the blogging scene. Simply because I miss it.
Woah. What’s this? An update?
And no, this is not because of my break up with my quasi-boyfriend. No, not about my mom being a PUJ hit-and-run victim (that one’s painfully raw). No, not about the Lifehouse concert nor the Oktoberfests either. Not even about my addiction to Plurk. And nope, it’s not because I’ve change my website’s look again (I’m working on that).
Well… It’s because of the 2008 Philippine Blog Awards. And I’m here to give out my vote.
And to whom does my vote go to? Mike Villar, that’s who.
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France
A part of me has been dying. It has been waiting for its death since god knows when, and yet I held on to it blindly, not wanting to let go, allowing it to eat away my own life.
To others, it might have been long dead, it might never even have existed. But I held it within my grasp because I thought I could fix it. That I could bring it back from what I hope was just its slumbering state. But I concede, with only one request.
The picture will tell you otherwise but I am actually still in frustration that I cannot finish any of the designs I have been working on since the start of the year. Moping around with a broken heart and bad ailment is not my thing. I have been trying everything to get my brain out of the designer’s block. I have gone and busied myself this year, meeting up with the guys and gals of TMB (The Man Blog), meeting new friends through Facebook and that Human Pets application, going crazy with the drinking buddies, finally seeing a big client, caught up with family reunions and bonding times, tried and enjoyed playing Airsoft, caught up with college friends, hanged out with my daughter, pushed to the limits, gone on vacation and heck I may have done it all, except the designs I should have finished by now! I hate having my imagination down in the dumps!