Mental Diarrhea?

August 3, 2007

So I was suppose to write something deep and inspirational today but decided not to. I am not in a very inspiring mood and it would be a complete and utter lie to pretend I could write anything coherent right now so instead here are oodles and oodles of random thoughts. Just think of me as a pen that went haywire and spurted all over your favorite shirt…

I am in what others would call a vacation; I audaciously left Manila with my cellphone, my camera, a few clothes and some cash and took on North Luzon.

Why did I do this? I am freaking out, I have buried myself in work for the past months and my body has taken its toll. I have become uber depressed and in dire need to unwind. Please do not try to ruin my momentary fun.

Yesterday, I was in Bulacan. Visited my cousins, almost fell in my uncle’s fishpond, played basketball with a few of my cousin’s friends. Bruised my knee. Masakit.

Today I am somewhere in Pampanga, staying with my mom’s relatives, hanged out by the fountains in the plaza, hanged out in front of the sari-sari store, watched a few dvds, gazed out the window most of the time (feeling babae sa bintana?).

Tomorrow? We’ll never know.

I want to go to Bataan, check on my mamang may be. Or visit sempai and mama ouch.

Or may be I want to go to Olongapo to hang out with Tinapot, check out Ocean Adventure and may be force my so-called-boyfriend to see me.

Can I afford Ocean Adventure? Do I even have my swim suit with me?

I want to check out Zoobic. Mura ba dun? Maganda daw dun e?

Right now, I am in search for company. To keep me sane throughout my so-called vacation.

During the day I can pretend I’m ok but at night, I cannot take this sadness, this longing, this loneliness.

On Sunday, it’ll be our anniversary supposedly but he usually forgets special dates and we haven’t celebrated any occasion at all. And I am trying to understand but I am still damn bitter about it.

I want to see him but he doesn’t have time to (or maybe he doesn’t want to) see me. Bitterrrrrrr

I have a few design projects to send to their owners but the computer stations here doesn’t have working USB slots. WHY?!~

Hello? Kulang ako sa lambing, sa pagmamahal, sobra sobrang emotera mode na ito…

My dad is coming home next week, worried about me so my vacation will end next week.

I wanna go to Baguio! Or may be even Pagudpod! Woohoo!!! Pucha mas masaya to kung may kasama ako!!! -parinig-

I miss Fiona. I miss my friends. I miss going online. I miss having a boyfriend the most (hahaha bitter parin talaga ano?)

I think I just ran out of antibiotics.

I remodeled my template. Hehe.

I officially do not look like I’m from here, everyone gives me that weird look.

I need cash.

Pwede ba ipasanla ang puso? I really don’t see it useful for me right now.

My camera just ran out of battery.

My phone ran out of battery too. Too many twitter messages received kasiiii…

I just ran out of thoughts too.

To be continued…

P.S. Demotivator of the Day – Napagtripan ko lang, I love this demotivator
Burn Out Demotivators

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  • Reply ch13f August 3, 2007 at 8:46 pm

    hanga ako sa pag “put-into-words” mo sa nararamdaman mo ngayun miss joiz .. hanef!

    saka, happy montshary!

  • Reply fionixe August 3, 2007 at 10:05 pm

    😀 maganda ngang katanungan yung kung naisasanla nga ba ang puso. Sounds like a telenovela title. ^_^

    Siguro nga kung nasasanla ang puso malamang mayaman ka nga pero di ka naman maligaya.


  • Reply cory August 4, 2007 at 1:35 am

    kapag nasanla mo puso mo contact mo ko. sasanla ko din akin tapos larga tayo! haha happy anniv! smile naman jan!

  • Reply Roanne August 4, 2007 at 1:57 am

    I love the new layout! It looks more like a portal now.

    And how I wish I could just take off like you did. Haaay. Enjoy your well-deserved vacation!

  • Reply joiz August 4, 2007 at 9:45 pm

    Thanks thanks thanks and mucho thanks. ^_^ Sana nga maenjoy ko ang vacation kong to. So far medyo boring e haha. Maghanap ba naman kasi ng something thrilling. Yoda says: adventure we must have.

    How I wish masanla ko talaga ang puso ko hahay, kaya nauubos ang pera e kaka online tsk tsk tsk

    me needs moolah… palimos po! huhu :sweat:

  • Reply Jake The Miserable August 5, 2007 at 7:40 pm

    Pwedeng isangla ang puso. Sa katunayan, may libre ka pang noodles.

    Wala, for light thoughts lang.

    Sana’y maging matiwasay ang iyong rakenrol beykeyshon. Kaya pala nabanggit mong ‘ala ka sa Maynila nu’ng naghahanap ako ng makakapiling for a nightlife. 😀

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