I’ve only admired you from afar. For so long I have kept the feelings deep within the recesses of my heart, and at the back of my mind. I know I can only admire you like I would a star. And I admire you for your eloquence, your intelligence, your humor, your wit. And I admire you for how you make me smile, how you seduce me, and how you make me laugh at myself after because you tell me it’s a joke. I admire you for how high you’ve achieved and how far up I believe you’d still go.
I know I can never have you. You deserve someone from up there and not someone like me from down here. For you are an unreachable star, and I am just dust. Dirty and useless.
When you flew across the sky and noticed me, I thought maybe it was just a dream. But then you visited me so often and filled my eyes with smokes and shadows. Blue smokes that glitter with hopes that maybe you liked me. Shadows that made me think your presence is just near. You made me feel like I was special too. Dammit, I felt maybe it can be true. And so I allowed myself to fall for you.
But I now know I never had you. And it hurts, but I can never tell you. No matter how long we’ve been acquainted with each other, I can only wish I could let you know. But you belong in the heavens. And I… I can only long for you.