May 22, 2008

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France

A part of me has been dying. It has been waiting for its death since god knows when, and yet I held on to it blindly, not wanting to let go, allowing it to eat away my own life.

To others, it might have been long dead, it might never even have existed. But I held it within my grasp because I thought I could fix it. That I could bring it back from what I hope was just its slumbering state. But I concede, with only one request.

Let me die along with it.

For as I watch the last embers of this illusion turn into dust, I know soon I will be reborn. And life will be beautiful once again.

Farewell love. Until we meet again.

P.S. Thank you for the wonderful two years of blogging. I have to (and is STILL in the process of doing so..) shed off some of my life’s baggage before I could write again.

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  • Reply Ade May 22, 2008 at 3:39 pm

    Wait, what?

  • Reply joiz May 22, 2008 at 4:12 pm

    LOL! Ade! The title doesn’t connect noh? and the post probably doesn’t make sense?

    Let me put a post script, it might be a weee bit helpful. Or not.

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  • Reply Jake The Miserable June 3, 2008 at 9:33 am


    Ngayoness na nga aketch naka-jerjer ulet ng time para mag-major blog visits. I’ve been literally out of the blogging drift for some months now.

    msta na u? d2 na me.

    Bubble Tea na lang! πŸ˜€

  • Reply Anna June 3, 2008 at 5:01 pm

    Halloers… what is dis… mader… πŸ˜•
    ano po ngyayari waaa n clueless ako. 😯 πŸ˜•
    everything will be ok ikaw pa…

    hope to talk to you soon

  • Reply FruityOaty June 10, 2008 at 10:54 am

    What the… I finally get around to getting off my bloghopping hiatus… well, sort of… (something like 2 months now)… and I’m here… and now you’re… what… gone?

    Oh. Hope you come back.

    More importantly, I hope your mother recovers soon. I will pray for her.

    Take care.

  • Reply romzkeepomski June 25, 2008 at 7:56 am

    Kaya pala you look so familiar… taga UPelbi ka din pala… my ex tool comsci too sa elbi. We’re on the same boat, I quit corporate life 2 months ago. Hehe.

  • Reply Bill July 7, 2008 at 4:03 am

    hi hows it going? you have a great site here. i really like it. want to exchange links. Let me know and i will add you up. have a good one till later. πŸ™‚

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  • Reply sagbee August 30, 2008 at 3:33 am

    hope you will comeback soon with lots of new phoenix energy πŸ˜€

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