To he who abandoned her,
This is not a letter of hatred. I had to let you go for self-preservation, and I understand that you probably walked away to do the same. There was anger and resentment because I didn’t understand how you can turn your back completely from a gift made from love. While I still don’t understand, I’ve already forgiven you.
To she who is my sun,
Even if I can be very scary or very busy, I want you to know that my world revolves around you, and everything I do is for you. I am sorry that I am not perfect and that I cannot give you everything you need. I try. Please understand.
When I saw you in the crowd, I felt nothing. Just a relief that I finally found where you were waiting for me. Even if I was already two hours late, you smiled at me. I grinned back.
I’m not a big fan of your new hairstyle. Your hair is too thick, and I liked your Asian hairstyle better. Nonetheless, you’ve always had beautiful hair so I stroked a section of it and commented that it’s getting longer. How I wish I could keep running my hand through your hair, but I didn’t.
I’ve only admired you from afar. For so long I have kept the feelings deep within the recesses of my heart, and at the back of my mind. I know I can only admire you like I would a star. And I admire you for your eloquence, your intelligence, your humor, your wit. And I admire you for how you make me smile, how you seduce me, and how you make me laugh at myself after because you tell me it’s a joke. I admire you for how high you’ve achieved and how far up I believe you’d still go.