All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France
A part of me has been dying. It has been waiting for its death since god knows when, and yet I held on to it blindly, not wanting to let go, allowing it to eat away my own life.
To others, it might have been long dead, it might never even have existed. But I held it within my grasp because I thought I could fix it. That I could bring it back from what I hope was just its slumbering state. But I concede, with only one request.
The picture will tell you otherwise but I am actually still in frustration that I cannot finish any of the designs I have been working on since the start of the year. Moping around with a broken heart and bad ailment is not my thing. I have been trying everything to get my brain out of the designer’s block. I have gone and busied myself this year, meeting up with the guys and gals of TMB (The Man Blog), meeting new friends through Facebook and that Human Pets application, going crazy with the drinking buddies, finally seeing a big client, caught up with family reunions and bonding times, tried and enjoyed playing Airsoft, caught up with college friends, hanged out with my daughter, pushed to the limits, gone on vacation and heck I may have done it all, except the designs I should have finished by now! I hate having my imagination down in the dumps!
Oh yes, she’s here. She’s there, she’s everywhere! My daughter’s turned two!
Photos are on multiply and flickr, but it isn’t much. Terrible twos? She can throw a terrible tantrum, can be very naughty and my kid’s smart amidst being a bit late on the talking side (wala kasing kausap masyado). I hope I survive the next year of having little people at home now that my princess is two years old.
Note to self: press the damn publish button before you close the browser. Idiot.
In par with my list of wants, exactly a month ago, I had my tattoo.
It’s been a month since I had my tattoo. Something that so far my parents will still kill me for. They really are against getting tattoos and me being the bah bah black sheep, I got one last month.
Opposed to what I promised in one of my previous posts, I was not able to publish my drafts for reasons I’d like to smack myself with. Seriously, I am having a hard time writing or publishing these past few weeks that I am a bit surprised I have not stabbed a pair scissors through my neck. :gross:
Anyways, since I am evading talks about my personal life nowadays, and writer’s block and procrastination have not been helpful either, we move on to topics I’m used to…
If there’s one thing you should never do when you have friends visiting and drinking at your own house, it’s to never teach your friends how to operate your camera. Never leave your computer on too!
I hate you guys so much, I made this my wallpaper for the week. LOL
Single. Ah yes, that word some people love to hate, and some others hate to love… Do you wanna be single? Are you single? Are you happy?
Some of my friends don’t seem to like being single at all. Some despise the idea of being single especially around February and remain entangled in relationships that never seem to help them grow as an individual and in fact continues to drag them down in the long run. Some jump from one relationship to the other (ouch?), bringing along baggages that affect the present, never giving themselves enough time to heal.
It’s pretty obvious that I have been neglecting my blog again, not just that but work and everything else in my life! Gad. What have I been up to anyway? Simple, I was trying to forget and got sucked into a certain app in Facebook. :gross: ^_^
But I’m back for real and I hope my clients aren’t pissed at me, I’m really sorry, yes I have piles of work to do and I solemnly swear I’d finish them this week (woot motivated!).
Anyhow, I was working on a list of things I want to attain/achieve/accomplish/whatever for this week/month/year, and one of them was to post an entry already! *sigh* so here it is already. heh
Although it is futile to find a fix to my brain damage, I really would like to fix my life and I know I have my old friends and my new found friends to help, *loads gun* right guys? 😈
Mark your calendars friends, both bands are coming here and are having concerts in the same week. Good luck to those who want to watch both. I will be going to both, even if I have to slave off for the tickets, or even if I have to kill just to get to watch them. I guess I have to be sex slave of sorts for 2 weeks to get the tickets, I hope not. 😆 I want to see Adam and Brandon!!! :love: *googly eyes*
Someone have better give me a good contest idea, make that two. I have goodies to give away. 😉