This was taken out of my real journal (yeah, I have one, got a problem with that?). The names were changed to keep my friend’s identity somehow under the radar. I don’t remember when I wrote this entry exactly because I didn’t put a date on the page. I do know this entry was written sometime mid-2010, so that isn’t so long ago.
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Dear future Joiz,
I’m writing you this to remind us of how you were when you were just 25 years old. I/we/you don’t know how to refer to ourselves, so for consistency’s sake, “you” will be used.
I had a musical dream. I was going to sing with a band. The other members were familiar, but now that I try to think about it, I can’t remember who they were. I had to learn the song on the day of the performance itself. I was singing the song, I had the lyrics in my hand while I practiced.
In my dream, I knew this song, but when I woke up I couldn’t even remember the tune. I can’t recall even a line from it! The song was “popular”, but it sounded like an original.
I’ve never been one to bring a journal along wherever I go. But I thought since I didn’t update my blog all too often this year, it was time I put my life in a journal. My thoughts have been a mess and I need a repository of ideas while I was on the go.
Early this year, I said I’d start updating my blog again. But then reality took over and projects, tasks & responsibilities piled up. And piled up. And piled up.
So that promise never gave fruit. Until today.
Maybe the thing that has hindered me from blogging again was because the site has become too old for me. There were old posts I didn’t want to look back to anymore, and the design. Dear god, the design was no longer working for me.
And so I allowed my whole site to be stagnant. But my life wasn’t.
I know, I know… I was gone for a year! Take away the podcasts from last year and I would’ve been gone for more than two years! Ugh. I haven’t posted anything for so long, I can smell the molds in my dashboard. Considering I’m almost always online, I know some of you would wonder why I wasn’t keen about updating my blog. Who do I blame?
The song has always been one of my old favorites, everyone I know knows it, there have been many cover versions for this song; and hearing it again in this video, with people from the streets –on the streets– performing them, it wow-ed me. I couldn’t help the tears welling up in my eyes during the first time I played the video. Oh gawd, it’s just a video. This Joiz person is such a cry baby.
It’s the eve of new year and although I should be up and about cleaning and preparing for kitchen duty, I just had stop and give my blog some much needed and long overdue loving.
This year has painted with a very colorful palette in my life’s canvas. So much so that I do not want to recall every little detail of it. But to draw the year to a close, I share to you how I will remember 2008 by.
As I was looking at the stats of my Flickr, I noticed that the most viewed photo I have on my collections was the photo of my friend’s tattoo on his thigh, the Illuminati diamond.
Personally, I’m not a big fan of the two tone thing. But the tattoo looked quite good IMO (still would have been better if it was on the chest! Like the branding in the book! Meep!). The views are coming from the search engines, although I don’t know what keywords are attracting the viewers and I don’t get why. 800+ all time views? WTF?
Yesterday marked my 24th year on Earth. I only spent the eve of my birthday drinking with one of my closest college friends, reminiscing about well… college and envisioning the years ahead. Spent my birthday with my family, and childhood friends. No well-planned (no plans at all) party, no grotesquely drunk joiz painted across the floor of some ladies room (no photos to prove it anyway), no flamboyant burning of cash. It was an ok birthday… Maybe it was a bit bitin but beggars can’t choose. I just didn’t want to plan anything at all (and end up disappointed that the plan just didn’t push through, like last year).
I didn’t intend to disappear for half a year. I can’t even believe I lasted this long without writing anything on my blog (save for my vote for Mike during the blog awards). I even took down my blog for the last month or so and replaced it with the LOLcat. I have wanted to breathe back life into my blog several times mostly for the wrong reasons. But now that I’m just a couple of sleeps away from my birthday, I thought it would be appropriate to reenter the blogging scene. Simply because I miss it.
I miss letting my thoughts fly around and talking to myself here. As pathetic and as hideous as it looks like now (and even before), Joiz.org has always been my baby. I miss writing about the things that make me who I am. And so I think it’s time for the bird to take flight again. But before that, allow me to do surgery on my blog, a bit of reconstruction and improvement is direly needed..