Complex Atypical Hyperplasia, Having Hysterectomy, and My Recovery So Far

It has exactly been a month since my Total Hysterectomy, and I thought I’d just add my own tales to the numerous stories about hysterectomy out there in the web. Fair warning, there’d be a lot of “girl talk” going on and I might go into a lot of details that might be TMI to some of you. So if you’re squeamish about talking about menstrual cycles, the female reproductive system, surgery and bleeding in general, it might be better to just close this window and open Netflix and watch some Brooklyn Nine-Nine or My Little Ponies.

Nightmares and ‪Stuff of horror movies

Hearing your only daughter call out to you from downstairs but you are also hugging a sleeping form of the same daughter beside you.‬

I have trouble sleeping at night (and then it’s too hot to sleep during the daytime. What is worse is when I start having dreams while I am still half awake. These hypnagogic dreams or hallucinations torment me and tonight’s was one of the more chilling ones.

🙁 I just want to get some rest.

How Do We Recover From The Long Silence?

I have been away, constantly telling myself and you that I’ll be back soon, only to break that promise time and time again.

How do I pick up the momentum now that the relationship with you is dead? Do I serenade you, dance for you, attempt to make myself irresistible so you’d come to me? Do I start talking about my life over the last few years and pretend the gap never happened? How do I even talk to you? I don’t even know what you’re supposed to be.

Are you about lifestyle? Are you about personal stuff? About events? Are you supposed to be a gallery or portfolio? What do we have to gain to be together again, my dear blog? What do we do now?

Who’s a Netflix Addict? *Points to Self*

I was hoping to write something over the weekend, but I got sucked into the blackhole that is Netflix (I did other stuff aside from Netflix, I swear! #defensive #multitask). While I did have a copy of 12 Monkeys since November last year, I only started to binge watch the TV series this Saturday. So far so good. I haven’t finished catching up, but I like what I’ve seen. I’ve finished a few Netflix-owned TV series too, A Series of Unfortunate Events was one of the latest, Santa Clarita Diet, and then some movies… But yeah, right now 12 Monkeys is my drug.