I am confused like hell today.
What’s so confusing about that? You can’t break your heart if you’re not in love. But you could be in love and not heartbroken… that means you’re content. If you are feeling confused, in love and heart broken, then may be you aren’t content?
I knew that was coming, and to answer that, I am longing to be content. I am in love and a bit heart broken. I want to find contentment also.
I am in Love
I have been in love for a long time and this damned love has been growing since. I know it’s taboo to be a single mom and then fall in love with someone so soon. I know what other’s would think if they find out the truth I have found out. I know that others would want me to give it up. And maybe I should give it up.
I am in love. Greatly in love amidst the complications, the pain and the anxiety. I am in love.
I am also heart broken
… because I am scared of what we have and don’t have. I am foolish and rash and aware of the consequences I would get for falling in love. But I don’t want to lose him either, I don’t want to think he’d go. It’s a long distance relationship and some things were left unspoken for a long time.. I can only also wish he isn’t ashamed of me or isn’t denying me. 🙁
So you see my dilemma here? I am getting insecure… And when you are feeling in need of security, how do you turn to him? -sigh- I don’t know. I just miss him so.